20 March 2013
A moment of self reflection
I still have nightmares that one day, I will wake up and one
side of my face will have dropped again. As much as I try not to hold so
much value on my outer appearance, my subconscious is still terrified
of dealing with everything (the pain, the stares, the stigma) that comes
with hemifacial paralysis. I know that other people are suffering from
worse, but at this moment, I’m vulnerable and slightly scared that I
have become so reliant on my “normal” appearance. This is beyond my
weight or my height, of which I try (keyword: TRY) to deal with the
grace of someone who just doesn’t give a fuck what society thinks, but
still, I’m frightened. I’m scared because I know how much society gleans
about a person just from their face, and I know that if it were to
happen again, it wouldn’t come with the taunting and mocking that
occurred in my childhood…but my irrational fear stems on the hurt that
so many caused, though as children, they had no idea of the lasting
effects.
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