Day 1 of reflection

Day 1 (Wednesday, 2 January 2013): Write about what you like/dislike from yourself, and how you plan to change it

     This past year, I've worked on loving myself more and accepting my personality and outer being. I've grown to see myself in a new and happier light. Even still, there are things that I wish I could change about myself. Actually, there are really only 3 things that I don't like about myself. They have nothing to do with my appearance because I find changing it to be a shallow attempt at making myself presentable to a society that deems outer beauty more worthy of praise than inner completeness. No, my dislikes are things that keep me from truly reaching my full potential of happiness: my procrastination, my tendency to jump to conclusions, and my constant worrying.

     I know that changing things like this don't have easy fixes. For example, if it were easy to stop procrastinating, students all over the world would be a lot happier around finals periods. So what can I do to stop these habits? Well, I know for procrastination I can stick to the schedules I make for myself. It's amazing though that I don't procrastinate in work environments, but in school or at home, I never want to do things on time. Hmmm...to stop jumping to conclusions, I can stop expecting people to react to the world in the same manner that I would. I know we each have our own views on life and what is expected of us, however, this does not stop me from wanting people to give what I give and think what I think. I'm actively working on not expecting things from people. That way, I won't jump to conclusions about, or make assumptions based on, their actions. And finally, to quit constantly worrying, I'm just going to live with an attitude of "I don't have to live for anyone but me." I'll still worry about my friends, but I won't let it consume my thoughts. We're all adults and I'm not their parent. If they need me, they know where to find me. My number hasn't changed in 4 years and my email address is the same as it was 5 years ago. I can't spend my time caring if they can't. That's just how it is. Through all of this, I believe I can live a happier, care free, and fuller existence. This is definitely what I need to do before trying to go forth with the next chapter of my life.

Cheers,
Yvonne

P.S. - This was supposed to be published two days ago. Procrastination strikes again!!!

Side note: I'm also going to work on writing in a linear manner; I tend to blog in a stream of consciousness. To do so, I will make myself write more essays and such...as long as I can stop procrastinating. ;)